Okay I get it. I look "mature for my age". A more straight forward word would be old! I've been hearing the same shit since 1st grade! At 6, people thought I was 10. At 10, people thought I was 15. At 15, an older friend of my mom's shouted across a room full of friends and relatives, at the top of her lungs; "Are you married now? Do you have any kids?" Once, I even got mistaken as my dad's "wife" (aka my mom) when I accompanied him to my little sister's tennis tournament. How awkward was that? On a scale of 1-10 I'd give it a 1000. I wasn't sure which was more embarrassing; being called my dad's wife or my little sister's mom. But believe me as "matured" as I look, I'm still pretty much the starry-eyed, curious little girl inside, who just turned 12 and realized Barbies are for 4 year olds!
Apparently, 21 is the icing to your 'Yay I'm legal' cake. I can now head to clubs without being worried about not getting in. I'm no longer considered "amateur" at anything compared to when I turned 18. I can even adopt a child. I'm not saying I'm gonna do all that stuff but it feels great to have automatic-permission from good ol' society. Every year I make all these resolutions that I never follow. This year I made a resolution to not make a resolution. I will accept life as it is. I only want to be healthy and happy as boring as that sounds. I guess as you get older, you just kinda learn to accept reality and not unrealistic bullcrap that you made up in your head, that would probably never happen (David Bowie making me breakfast, moving to Mordor.. ) I have such great family and friends, what more is there to life? Everything else is just extra cream to my coffee: I want it but I don't need it. I'm glad I've realized that at 21.